Loaves and Fishes
Updated: Feb 22, 2020
A basic principle I learned recently and have been trying to put into practice--you may think you don't have enough time to finish something, much less even begin pursuing it. The reason is, you probably don't. None of us really do. It is a myth to think that one day we will have all the time in the world to pursue what we want. In my experience, the older I get, the busier I get. I can't go back to life without a husband and kids and constant moving, and I wouldn't want to if I could. When I feel reminded to pursue acting, I feel like the disciples of
Jesus must have felt on that mount when he told them to feed the 5,000+ people. "Lord, do you not see my hands? They are empty!" Or in my case, "Lord, do you not see my hands? They are full!" But his response is essentially "What can you give?" They said, "Well, we have some small fish and a loaf of bread." I said "20 minutes." He takes it in his hands, breaks it, and somehow it multiplies. 20 minutes people. That is not much time. But I found him to be faithful again and again to multiply that time I give to this pursuit. And I am finally moving forward because I realized I don't have to have all the time in the world. Just a desire to get better. And if that means I am not excellent until I'm 80, that is far better than dying and saying "I never had the time." So here I am, inching my way along.